Outsider Looking In... Again

Always on the outside looking in, that's me. I'd like to say it doesn't bother me, but it would be telling lies and I must not tell lies. I hate that I feel somewhat jealous by things others are doing, achieving and accomplishing, but alas I do. 


If I look at it (and myself) positively, I guess it's a good thing I'm never satisfied. I want to do things, see things and earn as much as others do, but I always seem to get the raw end of the deal. I wonder why that is? 


I don't see myself as a pushover, but things always seem to pass over me. I am not blessed with good luck obviously. Some people fall into the right place, right time again and again it seems, and I can't help but wonder, when is it my turn?