Outsider Looking In... Again

Always on the outside looking in, that's me. I'd like to say it doesn't bother me, but it would be telling lies and I must not tell lies. I hate that I feel somewhat jealous by things others are doing, achieving and accomplishing, but alas I do. 


If I look at it (and myself) positively, I guess it's a good thing I'm never satisfied. I want to do things, see things and earn as much as others do, but I always seem to get the raw end of the deal. I wonder why that is? 


I don't see myself as a pushover, but things always seem to pass over me. I am not blessed with good luck obviously. Some people fall into the right place, right time again and again it seems, and I can't help but wonder, when is it my turn? 

General Social Blogging Ponderings

Must try harder. Must try harder. That seems to be my mantra for life. Whether it's my lack of inspiration, self esteem or simply boredom, I just don't feel that I have anything worth writing about, let alone writing something worthy of someone actually taking the time to read the nonsense I've written. Perhaps I'm being to hard on myself? No-one likes a pessimist after all, but then again, no-one likes a narcissist either.

I won't bore you with my mundane day to day wonderings (today at least), but let me ask this: why blog? Why read a blog? I've asked myself this question: is it like an online diary for my voyeuristic nature? Do I want random people knowing my most insane or mundane thoughts that pass through my rather porous brain? Or is it a social thing? People blogging and people reading, creating this other universe for us all to live in? Moving a step further with that last query, is it companionship? Do we read other people's blogs to make ourselves feel better, knowing that "we're" not the only person rambling to the universe at large?

In all honesty, I haven't come across another blog like mine. Everyone else seems to have it together, there's a purpose to their blog, there's a reason I read them. But who I wonder would ever read this? And if you did happen to come across this rather inconsequential excerpt of my daily ponderings, what on earth do you get out of it?! I can only think that you come away from this, feeling 100% better about yourself knowing that you haven't got these rambling yet curious thoughts in YOUR head!

Hummm... I do seem to go around and around and never find what I'm looking for, or what I'm trying to say. Such is my life.